Hey guys, I've been following this forum since early December. From conversations with Designer and Zoo, to reading Pzt/Spiny/Scope/Milk's logs, to just reading around I've learned a lot. I've felt welcomed by the community and that's really awesome so I've decided to join in. I'm not the most experienced, or strict person but that's what I'm hoping this log can help with. If this log helps me stay on track even just a little more than if I wasn't doing this, I'll be happy with it. It'll also be a good way of just talking about life and getting opinions from my fellow members.
First some background on me. I'm 21, lifted all throughout high school but didn't know what I was doing, especially diet wise. When I graduated and started college I decided I was going to take things more seriously, and started researching and piecing together a good diet. This is where I started at 17:
Not the best, but not the worst either not knowing what I was doing imo. That was fall/early winter of 2011 and I started eating better and working out more consistently. Started on (what I thought was) 2000 cals/day but I wasn't tracking preworkout (100 cals) and random shit like sauces. Didn't really have an end goal in mind but here's a picture of me around March/April of 2012 after losing about 10-15 lbs, ending up at a solid 145:
During this time I got in a relationship with a really awesome lady. But what we didn't know is that her back medicine had been messing with her birth control, which was a hard lesson to learn, because we learned she was pregnant in April. I tried to eat and train as consistently as I could still but obviously it wasn't as important anymore. Finding a stable job, saving money, finding a house, and stress took over my life and my fitness suffered. When the baby came it got even worse - I was still trying to workout whenever I could but my diet failed. I was eating a ton of boxed chicken rice and ramen, can't say it was the worst time hahaha. That chicken rice shit is legit.
By the fall of 2013 I had had enough of it and decided to focus on health again. Lots of cheap healthy meals, coffee instead of pre, and not a lot of sleep, but I was able to achieve something I was decently proud of. Here's pics from when I started in the fall of 2013, and where I ended in Jan 2014. Obviously you don't take 'bad' pictures of yourself, so this proves even more of how bad shape I got into if I thought THIS looked better than usual:
Where I ended up:
At this point my job got more demanding and I wasn't able to eat, train, or sleep as much as before. In Feb we were having some preeeeeeetty good sexorz and an accident happened but the lady doesn't believe in Plan B so we kind of just hoped. Low and behold I must have super sperm because that one time was going to cause a repeat of 2012..... More stress, and I went back into bad habits. I kept fucking myself over lol.
I had always known about PHs, and found them interesting to read about, but I always knew I wasn't ready for them. The only time I felt my diet, training, and rest (this one's kind of out of my control) were on point enough was that short 2011-2012 transition and I was progressing just fine without them. Well its late 2014 and I had pretty much kind of just given up.. and I was bored one morning at 3 AM up helping with the kids so I decided to look up PH stuff just for shits and giggles. Immediately saw the DASCA of 2014 thread and it had just gotten posted up so I guess I was one lucky bastard. I mistakenly ignored all logic and reason and figured that maybe this was going to be my magic way back into fitness.
I spent the rest of December cleaning up my diet and on Jan 5th 2015 I started researching IML Halo. 75/75/75/75/100/ and cut it short at 5 weeks because of a business trip. A couple of weeks into it I realized how stupid I had been to start this stuff when I wasn't even ready for it but I rode it out anyways. I'm halfway into my 2nd week of Nolva and at this point it's obvious I didn't know what I was doing. During my cycle I went up to 192 from 186 and now I'm 184. Throughout it all my strength went up, though, and I feel like I'm looking better. So even though I had no idea what I was doing, and I was eating a clean-dirty diet, it showed me really how strong this stuff is. And Halo is considered a beginner steroid only? I feel like it's a lot more useful than people give it credit for, even for an experienced user.
Anyways I know that was long and probably pretty boring but I'm really motivated to naturally get to a better state fitness wise. I want to cut down to maybe 160 again or somewhere close and then maybe maintain a little bit or just go straight into a bulk. I want to be more strict on myself. I'm done with the excuses. I'm not going to let anything get me off track any more. I'm done being dumb and I know there's no magic way to get there without hard work. If I feel like I'm ready for some help in the anabolic department I might add them in later on down the road but right now I just need to focus on getting my mind right and getting things consistent. I have a lot to learn still and I know logging will help me accomplish these goals. Thanks for reading!
7g olive oil
sludge (1 scoop protein powder, 20g oats, half serving of pb2 and a little water)
230g egg whites
45g brown rice
4oz chicken breast
45g brown rice
14g olive oil
sludge with natural pb
112g fat free cottage cheese
1 protein shake sometime during the day
1 can of no sodium added green beans
2 scoops bullknox androrush preworkout
nolvadex (for now)